Teach me to fully depend on You

I asked you to teach me.

Teach me to depend on you fully.

To fully depend on u. No double minded. Never doubting.

I never knew that a prayer like this would be so hard.

It is as if I was blindfolded.

Not knowing what the next step would be.

Before I got blindfolded, all I see was DANGER.

Getting my eyes closed was one of the hardest thing to do.

The only thing I can do is have faith.

But, how strong can ur faith be?

You KNEW that danger was ahead of you.

Your eyes saw that.

If u knew, then wouldnt u stop walking?

Wouldnt you stay where u are?

It was one of the HARDEST things to do.

Often, I pray that I commit whatever it is and to trust Him.

I dun even remember how many times I said that.

But, did I really mean it? Was I double minded like how James 1: 6-7 says?

That I'm secretly denying God's ability?

I think I did.

When I prayed the prayer, I didn know that God will really take me seriously.

I was praying so He could do some sort of miracle for me.

It came to me so personally.

I never had such struggle.

It might be a small thing but to me, it taught me a BIG lesson.

Like seriously.

So, I finished what I was suppose to study for my last paper. Or so I thought.

I was freaking out so badly that I complained about it to practically EVERYONE I know.

Yes, im a whiner.

I knew I didnt trust God enough.

As if the freak panics wasn't enough, I realized I studied the wrong chapters for my exams.

Like seriously WRONG CHAPTERS.

I studied those chapters that wasnt coming out.

But I DIDNT study those chapters that WAS coming out.

So, I was back to square one.

That time, I knew that I could ONLY trust God.

It struck me that it was exactly what I prayed.

'Teach me to fully depend on you'

and this is the time for me to put it into action.

Indeed, God never fails.

When I trust Him, God pours his mercy and grace upon me.

Though I do not know what I wrote in my paper, knowing that I wrote crap, I knew that God will do the rest.

One thing, the reference book that I used for my open book exam was so outdated that a lot of information was not there compared to my friends.

Then, I didn know what the question wants.

But, I just wrote and wrote.

Now that it is done, I can say that I walked one step forward.

God is so cool.

He disciplines you but will NEVER let u fall.

It was a lesson that I would never forget.

My Father is amazing and I love Him.

I have a Father who is so full of grace and merciful. What about you? =)